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Monday, June 26, 2006

the time now is 12.31am. in approximately 12hrs time... i presume that i would travellin to VJ to kickstart my common test (i prefer Midyrs though)...

FYI pple, this is my exam schedule:

monday (aka 12hrs later)
2-5pm ---> gp

tuesday
8-11pm ---> chem

wednesday
8-11 ---> phy
2-5pm ---> econs (i'm so dead)

thursday
2-5pm ---> math

friday
8-11am ---> chinese (i'm so dead as well.. what a great way to end the exams man)

yea... most probably the third time i wrote this schedule, after sending 2 copies to my brothers and sisters of christ.
lucky tmrw's ppr is in the afternoon, at least it means slightly more slp for me.. heh
but afternoon pprs will be a challenge cos travelling in the sun for me is really bad. possibility of getting migraine is super high and it was affectin me during o level period. i'm serious...

oh wells. somehow or rather... even though it's 12hrs to my exams, i somehow dont feel as though it is an exam period lor. i'm not totally stressed.. i was freakin out afew days ago but it's definitely better now... well, what can i say man?

miracle catch was today. was great to have so much pple coming for svc. not onli for our tribe, but for the entire church... although we didnt fill the entire Hall 10 of Expo... there was noticeable changes lah... claps claps*
newer pple in our cellgrps... had great time with the ice-breakers and etc etc.

i'm seriously getting accident-prone again...
i'm having a corn (actually it's an small infection)
i injured and fell on my knee which hurts even right now
i was helpin out during dinner-time and i knocked my left foot to the kitchen door...

i rmbed candice always get leg accidents... even though she is my spiritual sister, i dont think i'm getting the leg accidents thrh genetics right? hmmm ... jus confusing myself lah.. haha

can anyone teach me how to pass for gp? ... i'm desperately in need of tuition for gp man... i can sense it liao, haha

{ 12:35 AM }

Sunday, June 25, 2006

i finally finished all the topics for Math, Chem and Phy... hooray!! sense of satisfaction man... but the fact that econs and chinese (esp chin) is untouched, makes me kinda uneasy and a let-down.. oh wells...

tmrw's the last day of hols liao.. cant believe a mth passes by so fast... it's gonna be july liao. soon it'll be promos and year2 will commence... how time flies when u're having "fun" ... i emphasize on "fun"... heh...

jiayou to all JC students who's studyin furiously every single day.. hope u guys will cover as much as possible... gambette!!

i've done my part liao... God, it's your turn now...

5+ wks to DE retreat. candy, gimme one more wk... i needa take care of my exams first
i cant wait to work with u to plan the retreat. it'll be hectic but it's alright, we can do it in time.. excitement*

serving a faithful God, who is faithful and true
in any ways possible..

{ 12:19 AM }

Friday, June 23, 2006

amazement!! i finally understd differentiation and OSCILLATIONS!!!

such a morale booster !!
i'm left with thermochem and lots of econs...

{ 11:16 PM }

Thursday, June 22, 2006

these few days have been... productive yet exhausting.
in short, my human clock is malfunctioning... i'm slpin at the wee hrs of the mornings, mostly 3plus... and onli waking up at 10. somehow my body has developed a auto-alarm clock that prevents me from getting more than 7hrs of slp.
it sucks esp when u're super duper shagged and wanna catch all the slp u can.. but my body doesnt let... crapp

FYI: i didnt slp at 3plus to watch worldcup ok! although i really wish to... i cant cos i needa catch up for nxt wk's Midyrs...

here's what i got left:
- math: differentiation
- chem: chem bonding, thermochem and entrophy
- phy: oscillations and thermal phy2
- econs: erm... everything?
- chinese: erm... everything too...

i can forget abt h3 math liao.. although i've been focusing on math these few days, econs is nvr gonna make the criteria... i can oredi predict it liao.
stressed? duhh... i would be lyin if i said 'no' ... but trusting God? a full 100% man ...

btw.. pple, i managed to repair my comp liao. (like finally lah...)
haha.. finally i can spend lots of time on MSN again... heh

ohh fun part of the day:
i ate meepok dry this afternoon. was abt to chew the liver and i thud of...

i jus cant help but laugh each time i recall this turkua thing.. HAHA

{ 11:45 PM }

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

missing the great times with these awesome pple... great times of worshippin the Lord

enough of the serious part. now for some insane stuff abt the RL Band!! haha..

Janelle's common reaction during meal-time, esp towards chup(sauce)-less meals

our drummer and his sian look...

our acoustic guitarist who is trying to act cute. FYI: he gets super 'high' when he's tired.. the amt of crap he starts speakin is super amusing at times...

our moments of laughters and smiles

this picture is the best. camy and her kiasu-ness... tsk tsk

no one can take worship out of my life. i wonder whether i can do platform in the future... hmmm

{ 2:48 PM }

Sunday, June 18, 2006

with so much stuff to prepare within the coming wks (some in 2wks, others in 6wks) ... i'm really really needin some form of help... God, help me

1) Studies for Mid Yr Exams
2) Project Work (Surveys + Interviews) i seriously hate this one
3) Script for Piano Concert
4) Program I/C for DE Tribe Retreat
5) Reformat computer and reinstallin everythin
6) Worship rehearsals

i need to calm down... like seriously...
people, needin prayers man

{ 9:13 PM }

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Here's the Photos of the RL Band!!! thx to Janelle's Camera...

Dylan and me...
our sian look bcos of the failed attempts for 7000Smiles

Me (keyboardist), Linnet (Vocalist), Dylan (Elec. Guitarist), Sarah (Worship Leader), Janelle (Keyboardist #2 & synth), Lionel (Vocalist)

another photo of us.. check out Dylan's face!
me, camy (bassist), dylan, janelle, sarah

we do what we do best... slack!! haha

but...
we know the right time to get seriously serious, check us out as we prepare for song-test and rehearsals...

another photo of our serious side..

keyboard (black) and the synth (silver) used for the 4 worship sessions.. Janelle's keyboard rocks man... so big and powerful!!

well... that's all the band photos for the Cluster Camp

we're onli missing our acoutic guitarist (yiliang) and sebas (drummer) .. sianz, need a full picture man! still missin them after the end of the camp (which was 6days ago lah)... shall be seeing them tmrw during svc time though..

{ 8:58 PM }

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

jus gotten back from RLL Cluster Camp. it's been a long long 4days man ... sickening, tiring, irritating yet wonderful experience. after 3 nights, i have only slpt 16hrs which really kills me cos my shoulders have an effect to lack of slp, it'll ache like siao...
having to survive 4/5 hrs of slp per night, with stinky bathrooms, hard floors and chup(sauce)-less meals (i can see janelle complaining oredi) was the dwn side of the entire camp, but i still managed to enjoy the entire camp...

think one of the things that i really miss ... is workin with the band. i mean this 4 days have really bonded us together, we have gone thrh stressful situations (dylan being the front cover of the new Stress Magazine). we have gone thrh laughing moments, esp during meal times cos the expressions on Janelle's face is super amusing. we have gone thrh moments of boredom and slpiness ...
i have onli started to work with the band since the beginnin of this yr, and we would onli get together monthly for the RL288 or Congre mtg .. meaning: we onli meet 2days in a month so bonding time is considered less impt.
the funny thing is ... each RL288 mtg or Congre mtg onli has 5 to 6 songs, whereas this camp had 17 or 18 songs (that's why we were so stressed) ... but even though we were super busy and fan(troubled) by the vast no. of songs and lack of practice, we somehow managed to focus on each other rather than the task ahead... i oredi know much much more of each of them.

even now, i miss working with them and kinda excited to work with this awesome grp of pple. i used to think that being the youngest, i was the lousiest in terms of technic ... duh mah, cos janelle is so so much better than me... but the Lord shown me the meaning of serving and not comparison... and each session was totally different and all of us jus seemed so zhai (cool) and the worship sessions being so perfect...
finally i understood the meaning of JOY that was shared by Janelle, when she emailed us on the opening day of the camp itself (abit late hor?) ... but it is really interesting cos the joy comes from serving and most imptly commiting ourselves to Him. i'm jus really grateful that we managed to see thrh the technical stuff, and focus on the real purpose of serving. thank God..

each time i was up there, i felt the presence of God jus fall on me. it's a very soothing effect, sometimes i jus wanna shut my eyes and stay in that feelin longer but i cant, cos i needed to lookout for hand signals by the Worship Leaders... haha... but the feelin is kinda indescribable... it's jus what it is... but i know it's more than a feeling or an emotion, it is God ...

JohnBai shared smth interesting... "i jus wanna keep on serving Him"

one of the areas that i was pissed before the camp, ard in may .... was that i wasnt confirmed into being a part of the band, i kept thinking... how can sarah leave me out at this exciting event?? and i struggled to accept the fact that i wasnt... somehow, god managed to hear me and granted me that wish ... heehee...
but now, i understd a diff thing... serving Him is an opportunity, not based on personal benefits.

God, i jus wanna keep on serving You. Anything.. Anywhere.. Anytime.. as long as You need me, I'm willing..

but hor, serving in the Band really deprives u of other things. for one.. u wont have any time to mingle with ur grp members or cellgrps. which kinda sucks cos u're like an outsider, always there and not there at the same time.. haiz

ohwells... here's some photos of the BAND!! (soon to come...)

time to move away from the band and focus on the impt. stuff of the camp. think the activity that impacted me the most would be on the Structured Experience (SE)... SE actually forces u to undergo physical and mental constraints, that allows u to reflect on certain areas of ur life.. really interesting cos it somehow worked for me.
think the most painful yet enriching experience was the last station... i call it the Crossing.. basically u supposed to travel roughly 50m with a cross-like structure (actually it's a long bamboo stick with weights added on the ends of the sticks) ... btw, u have to travel it on ur knees or kneel-walkin...
at first, it was still okay cos it's still 'simple' ... but towards the end, they left lots of beans on the floor.. the moment u travel on that 'surface', u'll begin to experience super super excrutiating pain with beans piercing ur skin and getting stucked in ur skin... right now, i'm having cuts and blisters on my kneecaps...

despite the pain, i received a better understdin of what Luke 9:23 meant. taking up the cross daily and walking with Him for all the days of my life. an experience which cant be bought, which cant be repeated... here's what Janelle commented abt it.. "and i would gladly trade my entire life, for that few seconds of revelation. it was priceless. i wasnt crying because of my knees, even tho they were bleeding.but at that moment i felt like my heart had been temporarily shreadded.and when you put something shreadded back together,it can never be the same as it was before."

how true..

i'm still missing the camp... when i was still there, i was dying to get home and desiring for slp, aircon, bed and my comp... but now, i wished it lasted longer... much much longer. haiz .. ever had this feelin before? hmmm.

i'm off... apparently i have to return to the real world, and it sucks with Midyrs onli 1.5wks away (and i'm super not ready, i'm serious) and with PW continuing to trouble me... sianz sianz

{ 11:55 AM }

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

i'm here on a Tues night... actually, Wed morning... it's 1.16am lah. anyway, these few days have been rather hectic and tiring. i'm telling u that my shoulders are oredi having the aching feelin... smth that only happens when it was school term.

SUNDAY 040506:

woke up at 7plus to go for SOL classes and meet Dan. apparently all of us were late, so we had to have a conference b/w dan, nick, dylan and me... all of which were at diff places.

dan&nick - driving
dylan - bukit merah macs
me - on a cab

imagine having a conference with alot of unwanted sounds... plus having to say 'amen' in the cab, with the taxi-driver staring at u.. haha
the talk dragged really long... in the end, we ended at 1030 and registration for SOL classes had ended liao... so in the end, i decided to pei nick and study at macs. managed to complete entrophy (it was the only notes i had in my bag, haha) ...

skipped lunch and bused dwn to EXPO ... i like the new worship song, "kingdom come" by hillsong united... drums and elec. guit were awesome!!
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went for Global Day of Prayer in the evening, at the National Stadium. it's quite awesome cos it's a first time i've seen so many christians gather in one place lah .... but the time spent there was super not fruitful. cos i was really really tired and i totally 'turned off' oredi ... wasted. haiz

took a bus with Suang to marine parade and decided to cab home after that...
reached home at 1130 ... ate supper and was intendin to slp... but i decided to practise for the RLL Cluster Camp worship songs. i knew i wont have a chance to practise tmrw morning&aft... so i spent an hr to listen and figure out the keyboard parts, before my mind totally stopped functioning.. haha

MONDAY 050606:

went to vj in the afternoon for Piano emsem rehearsal. forget to tell u guys ... i'm the emcee for that concert lah, super sickenin... bangs head*
so i spent the time listening to the entire run-thrh of the songs and i think the performers are gd.. i spent the time commenting on the entire outlook of the concert... making fun of the people's facial expressions, haha... i know i'm abit evil.. heh

smth bad happened... dont wanna elaborate but i'll hint u guys ...
it's gotta do with my ezlink, my hair (not cut since end of sch) and mr tan... make the guess, i think u'll get it correct

haiz...

bused dwn to tct... and had dinner with janelle, yiliang and sebas... had band rehearsals after that. been a long time since i served as keyboardist liao ...
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shared cab with sebas and jiasheng, who are all easterners... reached home at 1130 with my vj uniform, my bro almost got a shock and said, "sch ended so late?" ... my bro has lost all sense of the jc and sec sch holiday timeslots ... cos in university, his breaks are diff timings...

TUES 060606:

i like the date for today ... all in a sequence, abit lame.. oh wells
today rather slack lah ... onli had piano lessons in the aft and after tat, entire family (except dad) headed dwn to ikea to do more shopping... we shopped frm 1530 to 1930... 4hrs of ikea shopping totally irritated me, cos non-stop brainstorming and visualising the layout of our rooms and hse... ugh

bro, mom and i were too tired to even take mrt home (why did the stupid car have to breakdwn at this time?) ... we decided to cab home...
got myself a new chair and a short cabinet for my tv... the only bad news: i doubt i would be buying a new tv set, dang*

my room is finally complete. except for afew more shelves which i will decide in the days to come...
spent the past few hrs buildin the cabinet and chair... only managed to complete it at 12plus... super tiring lah...

room looks pretty nice now... i rmbed i was super fearful of the layout of my room. but apparently, everythin that i have chosen and bought... seems to fit jus nice.. whoa
i'm not gonna post any pics lah ... unless i'm not having a hse warming... dont wanna spoilt the fun. heh

cluster camp is a day away... woohoo !! cant wait ... but i needa think abt wat to bring liao
ok i'm shagged... i'm out..

there goes my midyrs man ...

{ 1:18 AM }

Saturday, June 03, 2006

still aint settling well in the new hse, even though it's the 6th day oredi ...

why? 'cos afew more renovations aint done yet... it's on my nerve, cos everyone else isnt free ... meaning, i'm the guinea pig that has to stay at home and it's super super boring..
parents aint helpin either.. non-stop whining/complaining and recent arguments with the contractor seriously irritates me..

my table isnt up too ... the ikea guy is onli coming on monday and bcos of that, i cant settle all the boxes in my room ... the rest of the rooms are slowly being cleared, whereas mine. it's still the same after 6days... sianz

almost a wk of the hols are over... lookin at the subj topics to be tested for midyrs, i cant help but shake my head and go, "jialat liao"
i've onli been able to complete the 1st few chapts of math and at the rate i'm goin ... i'm surely gonna chiong like siao

finally got the worship songs for RLL camp liao (like finally lah, haha) .. judgin from the songs, i get to play alot of new new stuff.. heh, esp songs that i absolutely love.. haha

the prob: the band has very little rehearsals ... i emphasize on the "very little" ...

anyway, got some matters to take care of... gotta go

{ 8:36 PM }